Where I've Been

Hi guys. I hope you're all well and doing okay. It's been some time since I published a blog post so I decided it's time to fill you guys in and tell you where i've been. 

The last few months have been very difficult. I've lost many family members due to Covid-19 including my grandad. July was when it all started. One by one, relatives (from England and Pakistan) were being diagnosed with Covid-19 and it was a matter of time before their condition worsened and they were hospitalised. We didn't anticipate how many people we were going to lose so it hit us quite hard. This was the biggest shock my family had and it was something no one saw coming. It was getting to the point where every week for a month, someone we knew or knew of passed away. What's sad is that like so many other people, we weren't prepared for any of this. But in my religion God says "Every soul will taste death" (29:57) so it was written for all those people to pass away this year. May Allah (swt) grant them Jannah and to all those who died💗

In the midst of all this, my mental health started to decline. There were many reasons for this and I just felt like nothing was going right. I was trying so hard to pursue certain things and that too for the longest time but it wasn't happening. Rejection after rejection. Failure after failure. Disappointment after disappointment. Not seeing family or friends due to the lockdowns and tier system made it harder to cope with what I was feeling. So, I turned to God and continued to ask for His help because God "does not burden a soul beyond that it can bear" (Qur'an, 2:286). Alhamdulillah, after all this time, i'm at a point where I feel like myself again, how I was before the pandemic. All praises be to Allah (swt). I also connected with old friends I hadn't spoken to in a long time which was like a breath of fresh air. It really is the small things which make the biggest difference. 

So, if your feeling overwhelmed and upset - allow yourself to feel like this but don't allow yourself to keep on feeling like this. It's going to bring you nothing but negativity and you won't be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel. It does get better. I promise. Just keep pushing through everyday and truly do what brings you joy, what get's you out of bed in the morning. Even if it's a simple thing like cooking breakfast, making tea, catching up with a friend - do it. You'll feel better. 

I will occasionally be posting on this blog but head over to my instagram where I post videos on self-care/personal development & positivity every week 😊 In the meantime, if you ever need anyone to talk to, don't hesitate to send me a message. We all need to be there for each other during these crazy times. 

Stay safe and speak soon x